It’s Not You; It’s Your Trauma
EP 0003 – Blocked On Instagram
It’s Not You – It’s Your Validation
Getting unexpectedly blocked on a major social platform can feel isolating, but the real disruption often arrives when the community rallies with genuine support and kind words. For someone unaccustomed to receiving authentic affirmation, that wave of positivity can trigger deep discomfort, shame, and an urge to disappear. What begins as a minor platform glitch evolves into a mirror reflecting long-buried patterns of self-worth, childhood conditioning, and the exhausting pursuit of external approval.
Positive Feedback Can Trigger Shame Instead of Joy
Unexpected praise from followers sparked intense discomfort, revealing a lifelong difficulty receiving compliments without feeling exposed or fraudulent. The instinct was to hide rather than accept, highlighting how unfamiliar genuine validation feels when self-worth has been tied to performance rather than inherent value.
Childhood Praise Was Conditional and Performative
Memories surfaced of being paraded as a “trophy son” during family gatherings, where compliments were directed more toward parental image than personal authenticity. Praise passed through without landing, creating a belief that positive attention belonged to others and never truly belonged to the self.
Self-Sabotage Protected Against Unowned Success
Success or recognition historically triggered subconscious rebellion or diminishment to avoid benefiting those who once claimed credit. This pattern kept life oscillating between extremes—people-pleasing perfection or destructive rebellion—leaving little room for ordinary, authentic existence in the middle.
True Belonging Emerges from Owning the Raw Self
Posting unpolished, vulnerable content under one’s real name shifted the dynamic from seeking validation to simple expression. Over time, this built a community rooted in shared humanity rather than performance, replacing the need to fit in with a quieter sense of belonging.
Conclusion
Reclaiming Worth from the Inside Out
The journey from recoiling at praise to gradually accepting it underscores a profound shift: validation no longer needs to be chased through extremes or hidden behind polish. By sitting with discomfort, tracing its origins, and choosing authentic expression over protective sabotage, it becomes possible to own accomplishments, receive kindness without shame, and live more steadily in the unremarkable yet freeing middle ground where real connection—and self-acceptance—finally take root.
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